Hard Cold Heart

jeseppi © 4/19/95


once i met a girl
made me feel so fine
told her that i loved her
fit my design
opened up all my senses
her fragrance filled the air
‘till she blew away like a summer breeze
tearing pain beyond repair

buried my lonesome sorrows
in a pretty bonny lass
danced me through my misery
her sweet skin helped it pass
loved her late at night
‘till early in the day
then she left to nurse some old stray dog
in tears i begged she stay

it’s a hard cold heart
you choose to be
protecting all your interests
dividing you from me
not knowin what you’re doin
or the awful price you pay
it’s a hard cold heart
drivin you away

possessive now and insecure
i strive for vain control
i play the woman that i want
an actor in a role
playing games of jacks and hearts
and rummy ‘till we’ve drunk
then feelin tall hand on ball
she’s just another dunk

now years gone by what’s good for me
is all i care to do
never letting anyone down deep
using them like they use you
and if one day dream girl appears
will have to quench the fire
a rusty cold and stony heart
is all that i desire

it’s a hard cold heart
i choose to be
protecting all my interests
dividing you from me
not seein what i’m doin
or the awful price i pay
it’s a hard cold heart
drivin me away

Open Up Your Heart

jeseppi ©11/6/99
for Jesse


she was in a daze
someone took her love for granted
never thought to stay
everything he said was slanted
they did a club one night
danced until
the streets were silent
love had just begun
hate came in with his departing

open up your heart
love is not that terrifying
open up your heart
there is someone
out there crying
open up your heart
love is not that terrifying
open up your heart
someone’s out there crying
over you

a young and precious child
exploring life with you
sitting on a hill
gazing out into the sea of passions
he kissed and held your hand
your heart was pounding
first time ever
you opened up your womb
conquering the pain to help him

open up your heart
love is not that terrifying
open up your heart
there is someone
out there crying
open up your heart
love is not that terrifying
open up your heart
someone’s out there crying
over you

he loved your perfect smile
it helped him to press on
in a stone cold world
softened by the lovely
cheek he kissed
so oftentimes he fought
to keep you near his heart
while places that we go
drive a wedge
tearing us up

open up your heart
love is not that terrifying
open up your heart
there is someone
out there crying
open up your heart
life is not that terrifying
open up your heart
someone’s out there crying
over you

she opened up her womb
her only thoughts of you
conquering the pain
in the bleeding channel
you would pass through
and as you nursed upon
her breast so full and sweet
health and strength renewed
so you could grow to be
a mighty lover

open up your heart
love is not that terrifying
open up your heart
there is someone
out there crying
open up your heart
love is not that terrifying
open up your heart
someone’s out there crying
over you

My Friend

jeseppi © 5/29/96


you have always cared for me
always looking out after my hide
my friend
you are always there for me
nothing could keep you from my side
my friend

there has never been another
so faithful or so true
there has never been another
friend like you

you have always heard my cry
in the night when the day is done
my friend
i see you in my mournings
you are like the warm glow of the son
my friend

there could never be another
who could do the things you do
there will never be another friend like you

golden calves
are playing all around us
inviting us to covet all we see
as everything we touch just
turns to powder
there is nothin like the friend
you are to me

wonder why i waited
so long to tell you how i care
or why i hesitated
to sing these words
to a friend so rare

even when i turn from you
in your pain you still hold me so high
my friend
forgiving me for all i’ve done
saying there’s no need to cry
my friend

in the moments or in waning hours
i’ll be there to help you to make it through
there will never be
another friend like you

Clown Clown

jeseppi ©7/22/94


everybody loves a clown
colors so bright
filled with daylight
there is no tellin
what’s wrong or what’s right
when you’re laughin it don’t matter

everybody likes a clown
goofy and gay
just loves to play
what she’s sellin’
i’m buyin tonight
though later i’m the sadder

clown clown clownin’ around
dance about sing and shout
upon the ground
clown clown laughin at me
the mirror says look at the fool

everybody sees a clown
puttin on faces
no creed, sex or races
he’s only tellin
the truth you can’t hide
when your life sarted getting badder

everybody plays the clown
scraggly hairs
putting on airs
while she’s shellin
out the dough
she feels fadder


clown clown clownin’ around
dance about sing and shout
upon the ground
clown clown laughin at me
the mirror says look at the fool

everybody knows a clown
the outside in grease
the inside a beast
you must control him
or put him to flight
before the ones you love scatter

everybody toasts a clown
when he’s powedered his nose
right down to his toes
he’s twelve steps away
from holdin’ his day together

clown clown clownin’ around
dance about sing and shout
upon the ground
clown clown laughin at me
the mirror says look at the fool

everybody seeks a clown
reelin in lust
licking the dust
it’ll take you to hell in
infections of the bladder

everybody craves the clown
generous and kind
with a stable caring mind
dial the number pay your dollar
you can be the next batter

clown clown clownin’ around
dance about sing and shout
upon the ground
clown clown laughin at me
the mirror says look at the fool

everybody hates the clown
talkin about christ
when your pullin you heist
that’s no time for repenting
while you’re climbin your ladder

everybody fears the clown
will judge or criticize you
when you’re steeped in all the lies you
have sown to the air
that the wind will scatter

clown clown clownin’ around
dance about sing and shout
upon the ground
clown clown laughin at me
the mirror says look at the fool

everybody loves a clown
when his face gets crunchy
and his smile is lookin funchie
when you ask for extra crispy
his head is in your platter


everybody loves a clown
who can take you far away
from painful pulses in the bay
of the lake in your heart
bound to make you gladder

clown clown clownin’ around
dance about sing and shout
upon the ground
clown clown laughin at me
the mirror says look at the fool